I have a lot on my mind....it's just racing. It's good and bad. It's good because they are mostly good thoughts but bad becasue I can't complete a task before I start another one....
***Do you know the feeling when you have something on your mind and you just can't stop thinking about it? It occupies every free moment of free thinking time (ie, in the shower, when the kids are asleep, when the kids are quietly playing or watching a movie, etc). I can't tell if I am obsessed with this for a reason (like I need to be doing it) or I am just dreaming. Is it inspiration or just dreaming? I am having a hard time differentiating b/w the two feelings/thoughts. My mom gave us a book for Christmas about receving personal revelation..when I stop thinking about fabrics and sewing I should probably sit down and find out. Or better yet, do any of you know/have this experience?
***I don't think Samuel is going to get into Head Start pre-school program. It's too full mid-year. When I went to register him in November the lady that helped me was so encouraging. She said because he was 4 years old he'd be at the top of the waiting list. She also said that usually there are a few drop-outs over the Christmas break. I thought, for sure, that he would be in and starting this week. But I have called twice and he is still just on the waiting list. Don't you hate that? The kind of optimistic person that gets you all bouyed up and then come to find out that it is not going to happen? I think I'd rather her just be a grump, or not even that, just not so promising so the let-down is not so hard. So.....I guess I'll be teaching him...w/the whole putting the backpack on, having him knock on the door, singing time, play time and me teaching him. ugh. seems like a lot of work...He can't start kindergarten for another year and a half bcse his birthday is late September but he is getting old enough that he needs something!!!
I promised Samuel that if he was potty trained he would be able to go to school. He keeps saying how excited he is.....and guess what? He's doing pretty well (only 1 major poop accident) and so I have to keep my word...guess I"ll be teaching him.
***Wasn't Oprah great last week? I don't watch her show religiously but when she has uplifting and educational ones like last week, I'll record and watch. They were really helpful. And I can't wait for my OB/GYN appointment tomorrow. No, I don't have to do the girly stuff (I already did that recently) but I want to get my thyroid, anemia and all that tested. See if my hormone levels are off or I just need an attitude adjusment. I hope to get results!
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Hannah, I feel like that every other day! SERIOUSLY! I figured it's because I'm kind of compulsive, but I prefer the inspired idea. :)
ReplyDeleteMy mind races all the time...it's my little way way of escaping responsibility and dreaming:)
ReplyDeletepsychotherapy and drugs help me:)
ReplyDeleteOK. So obsessing about fabric and sewing is NOT weird, or crazy. It means you need to create beautiful things in your life...so DO IT!!! you are so good, and even if you never open a shop (which I think you should) you need to do it just for creation sake. Do it NOW while you don't have a newborn:) I was the same way about my art. Racing racing racing. But really...just give yourself that outlet, and you will be so much more contented:)
ReplyDeleteand about school...I hope you find something! Is there anything else in your area? Try starting a joy school with some friends...even if it is one more kid. It will be SO much easier than just yourself;)