Looking Back

I am making goals this year but I am not holding myself to them to the point that I feel like a failure if I don't accomplish them. Looking back, I realized I did accomplish many of the goals I had made. The biggest being opening my Etsy shop, potty training both children and becoming pregnant.

This year I want some basic things. Having a third child is quite terrifying to me. So overcoming that challenge is my first focus for this year. Understanding and having a greater love for my children and husband as well.

I'll see where my Etsy shop takes me. Maybe I'll let it grow or maybe I'll let it stay the same.

Our future is up in the air. The unknown hits us again this Spring as we await to hear about internships, where we'll be living, if the house sells that we're living in and we have to get kicked out. All of this will be answered come March/April.

I need to get to know myself better. Understand my personal values and what I want in life. Not so basic stuff. It should be pretty simple, right? I want to live the Gospel, right? But why? I want the best for my children, but how? I want to be happy, but when, how and why? These things were rolling around in my mind last year and I need to answer them this year, I feel. Do I want an Etsy shop or a more open life? How much "me" time can I afford to give myself... or lose? How much more can I enjoy motherhood?

These kinds of questions I ask myself and wonder. 2010. I hope you're a great year, better than the last! We shall see.....